Biggest tumor in a humanbody: Money and Power

It is sickening me how everything in this world is all about money and power. It has always been like that and it probably won't change. Money and power are tumors, and the danger of it is that it can be lethal to others around you but more important it can be lethal to yourself.

Those two things can make people insane. When you realize that no person is completely selfless, you realize this tumor will never go away. Religion, healthcare, wars, governments, organisations, companies, charities; all about money or power or both.

Last week I was talking with a friend about the meaning of friendship. And why people are friends in the first place. It all turned out to the question: Whats in it for me? What do I gain from this friendship?

Maybe this is the reason why I don't have a lot of ambition and maybe this is why I am not looking forward to a great career. I don't want to play this game of money and power. I don't want to intentionally screw over people over and over. I don't want to drive myself insane with things that don't even matter that much.

Jup, maybe trying to get powerful and rich is the worst decision everrr.  Maybe it's better to be in the middle class.At least then you don't have to deal with all those backstabbing bitches, or maybe not that much.

So when people ask me what I want to achieve in life, this is my answer:
Living life avoiding big bumps and heavy life changers. Just as a "normal" person. Fitting in the system. Being selfish by doing the things you like and taking care for you and your family first. Trying to eat, sleep and having a roof above your head, with occasionally a trip, to see more of the world.

Is it that bad to live your life that way? Is it so bad to have that little ambition?
Is it that bad look out for yourself first? Really.....?!?

Decisions

If traveling was free....

Recently I had to interview this lovely person. She mentioned the fact that she loves traveling. And that she had recently posted a quote on her facebook;

"If traveling was free, you would never see me again..."

At first I was like "DUHH same here!". But then again,, 

Why is that second part of the sentence you'd never see me again? Why not travel together, who doesn't like to travel?? I think it's because most people don't travel to just see the world. Traveljunkies(that's what I call them for now) aren't just traveling to explore the world. What they like to do, is to run away from their home crowed... I think exploring yourself is somehow an urge for a lot of people, and it's best to do it alone.

Few weeks ago I read that every great story always exists out of 3 parts:

1st The call, the call to adventure.

2nd The battle, the conflict in life, with a rebirth as a reward.

3rd The elixer, sharing your insights, experiences and happiness to take on in your normal life. 

Every story begins with a wakeup call. A major issue in life that calls for a change. (the call)

With the intention to search for the meaning of life and exploring yourself, therefore you must face your fears. (the battle)

When you return home, you'll be able to help others. For example by sharing your story. (the elixer)

The second part, the battle, is moment when people start traveling. Maybe this "magic" story formula the reflection of a human life cycle. That's why those stories are so likeable, it is equal to our feelings. It is the perception of what we want in our life. 

What would my life look like if traveling was free?

I'd probably be in an other country at least every other weekend. But most people that I know also love traveling so I wouldn't be alone. And to be honest, yes, if traveling was free I would also travel by myself. If it wasn't clear yet, I too am in this battle fase at least the beginning of this fase. I would consider myself as a beginning traveljunkie, love to explore but not yet addicted (enough).

Doubting everything and everyone

Last night I had this huge trust issue. Suddenly I started to think about all people that I hang out with, who to trust, better said who not to trust. Going through all my friends I started to wonder if I had trusted the right people. Or that maybe I should cut a few off.... And should I be more careful about the things I share with others?

When you know that people have been lying to your face once, is that a sign that they will lie to you all the time, or when it suits them? And is there a difference between a big lie and a small lie? If so, should you make a difference between big and small lies?

And is knowing the fact that a person is not trustworthy, giving you the advantage to act on it? So many questions flying towards me, but no answers to throw back. 

I think the easiest way to deal with all these doubts is to cut everyone off. And when it's family or a person that you can't cut off, than make sure you think about stuff twice before you share it. 

Maybe this solution is too extreme, maybe you will end up lonely. But I really dont like the thought of thinking about every word you say and having to defend everything you say especially in the circle that's closest to me. Or the feeling of being on edge all the time, because you're scared about sharing some bad or personal stuff. Also to be there for someone else, you have to be able to listen to them without having to doubt every word they say.

I know its me being paranoïa. But one thing is sure, the ones that I trust most are my parents even when they lie. Because I'd like to think that there ARE still people that I can trust with everything.

#LifeWithoutBumps

Watching series as a talent

Being the "normal" kid, I never stood out in anything. In school I would pass every class but just with average grades. I spend around 12 years practicing ballet and I know I wasn't bad.. but I also knew that I wasn't good enough to make more out of it, other then on an amateur level. I was good at all sort of things but never really "great".

And somehow I missed this way obvious thing about myself. Something I do almost every day and it has become a habit. The one thing I am really good at is watching series!! As I write this I am watching an episode of Pretty little liars (just started season on 4, no spoilers please..)

So my talent is to watch one whole season of any serie in just one week....next to all the stuff that everyone has to deal with; school, work, cleaning, cooking, friends, family etc. etc.

If you are wondering,, Current series that I watch are Pretty Little Lairs and The Walking Dead.
I just finished House of cards (season 3) and I am waiting for new episodes of Devious maids, Once upon a time and ofcourse Game of thrones.

Some may say watching series isn't a talent, I see it is a reflection of some of my qualities.

1. Commitment

You have no idea how many series I have watched. And seriously it takes some commitment to get trough so many seasons. 

2. Open mindedness

I watch Hong Kong Drama series to The walking dead and It's always sunny in Philadelphia and I like every single genre as much as the other. 

3. Setting priorities

To watch that many series still keep up with the social life stuff and everything else screams for multitasking and priority settings. 

I also like to think that you can learn one or two things by watching series, like:

Knowledge of human nature

Just by watching and analyzing all those different characters makes you understand the people around you. Because even though they are just characters, directors based them on real people's behaviour. 

Survival 

And ofcourse survival, everyone knows you don't go to the basement if you hear weird sounds in your house. And that you can only kill a zombie by headshots. 

So if I somehow do end up in a simular situation, I know I am already a dead man. 

Because no way that I am as brave as a leading character in any written script. 

It has taken me twice as long to write this blogpost just because my tablet screen is not big enough to do both writing and watching.

#Life Without Bumps

When life gives you lemons

#LifeWithoutBumps

Here are some weird questions that you probably cannot relate to!

What if ...

... your life is exactly the way people say it's supposed to be?
... you have always followed the rules?
... you have alway taken peoples advises to heart?

And
when life does not throw you heavy curve balls?

Imagine a lighted path that leads you straight into the big world. As long as you follow this path, while you're growing up, you will be able to handle yourself in this harsh world.

What if life has ALWAYS given you lemons but for a moment you realise that the path is ending? And while you were following it, you had no clue of the meaning of this path, that it was meant to shape you as a person. You only followed this path because it was so bright.
  - Britney Spears called it "not a girl, not yet a woman." - ;)

How will you make lemonade?

What now?