Doubting everything and everyone

Last night I had this huge trust issue. Suddenly I started to think about all people that I hang out with, who to trust, better said who not to trust. Going through all my friends I started to wonder if I had trusted the right people. Or that maybe I should cut a few off.... And should I be more careful about the things I share with others?

When you know that people have been lying to your face once, is that a sign that they will lie to you all the time, or when it suits them? And is there a difference between a big lie and a small lie? If so, should you make a difference between big and small lies?

And is knowing the fact that a person is not trustworthy, giving you the advantage to act on it? So many questions flying towards me, but no answers to throw back. 

I think the easiest way to deal with all these doubts is to cut everyone off. And when it's family or a person that you can't cut off, than make sure you think about stuff twice before you share it. 

Maybe this solution is too extreme, maybe you will end up lonely. But I really dont like the thought of thinking about every word you say and having to defend everything you say especially in the circle that's closest to me. Or the feeling of being on edge all the time, because you're scared about sharing some bad or personal stuff. Also to be there for someone else, you have to be able to listen to them without having to doubt every word they say.

I know its me being paranoïa. But one thing is sure, the ones that I trust most are my parents even when they lie. Because I'd like to think that there ARE still people that I can trust with everything.

#LifeWithoutBumps